Hasta la vista, baby.

So basically, i think i'm dropping out of school i guess?

Most to most, this would be the last week i'll be studying.

Why?

Well, i have my reasons.

Too many things have been probing in my already stressed out and troubled heart.

One of the reason is that i have totally no interest in this course i'm studying right now.

I have no f*ing idea why did i even chose this course before.

Feeling so damn dumb right now.

Another reason is that i actually found a few other courses that would be at the new ITE College Central situated in AMK next year! That makes it all so much easier for me to go to school now. Also, some of my friends would be going there as well. Why not? Since i got no interest in studying at this point of time anymore. I might as well find a job and earn some extra money and think about what i want to do with my life in the future. Who knows what awaits me at the end of the path that i chose.

I've made plenty of mistakes, plenty of wrong decisions in my life.

No doubt this might be another but i'm going to jolly well make sure that i don't regret this.

Too many regrets, too many. And i am not going to regret a second time.

And i'm pretty sure some of you readers feel exactly the same as me.

How short is our youth to enjoy?

Why not maximize it? In today's society, you can have education anytime.

It just all depends on your planning.

And that's what i'm planning to do. I'm going to take my first step.

Well readers, i don't encourage you to do what i'm about to do.

If you're studying something you really like and interesting in, do your best at it.

Never give up your dream.

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And talking about dreams, guess it's time for me to move on from the dream that would never come to for me. I gave up a few days ago. When i came to sense that it can't happen. Miracles don't happen even if you do believe. Because that's life. If you can't have it, you won't have it. If you are supposed to have it, you have to fight and work hard to make sure you get that damn thing you've done so much for. Life is just full of crap in the beginning. I just hope that when i die, i won't be crying like i've cried when i was born. And i'm going to make sure that i'd have made a mark for myself, something i can be proud of before i die. Yeah, that's the plan. And i'm working towards it.        =)

Now this is a pretty wordy post, i apologize because i really can't find any other interesting topics to talk about. A cookie for you? =)

Alright i promise, the next time i go out, i'll get plenty of pictures for my next interesting blog post! Okay? So promise me you'll stay tune to my blog? =*

xoxo.

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Collide with Loneliness

você pode sentir o meu solidão?

Some times, all you want to do is shout everything that's in your heart out.

Yet, you can't.

In my previous post, i set targets i wanted to achieve in my academics. But it looks like it's not going to work out. :/

Tomorrow will be my ILT paper, i've studied using evercy last bit of brain cells i've remaining but nothing goes in. I'm not the least prepared to fail it. It's my core module and it's worth 6 credits. Missing my presentation due to my own fault was already bad enough.

Now this?

But who can i blame? Nobody. But myself.

I've friends. I've family. I've every basic thing a human would need.

But something is definitely lacking in my life. Something very important.

And it's just so important that i don't realize what that is.

I need to find that out.

Because if i don't, this is definitely going to haunt me for a few more weeks, months, or maybe for the rest of this year. I don't know how well my brain is going to remember this.

Hopefully, God will be with me. I still hold that little faith in God.

I still hold a little of that belief..

Sports & Wellness first thing in the morning tomorrow and we're swimming.

Well, i'm definitely not going into the water. I'm either studying for my ILT, or i'll hit the gym.

This is still a short post after all. Apologies. :/

I promise, once i have settled every little thing that stressed me out, i'll be back with interesting stories to share! :)

Sidetrack,

Go Radio's new album "Close the Distance" will be out this September 18th!

I'm so excited for their new release! After all, it's GO RADIO.

Here's a preview to one of their tracks to their new album, "Collide". Hope you enjoy! :)

(Go Radio - Collide; Close The Distance)

Well, that's all from me today! Have a good rest! Goodnight! :)

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School's back, fun's gone!

Life's been good.

Been.

But it's just getting from bad to worst.

I'm never having any luck any thing. Demoralized much.

My brain has been killing me most of these days too. With so much thoughts that keeps me up till dawn break. This is probably one of the reasons why i was late for my project's presentation. Disappointed as it is, there is just nothing i can do about it, getting a 0 for that.

(even though i DID stayed up to prepare my presentations' speech!)

So my efforts were... Well, put to waste.

 Didn't really have a choice, did i?

For the next two weeks, i'm going to have detention for Mondays, Thursdays & Fridays.

SIGH, STRESS. & THIS FRIDAY THERE'S ILT TEST.

Time to study for it! Can't afford to FAIL my ILT because of the presentation!

Even if i can't get an A, i'm hoping i would at least get a B!

My target results for all my exams:

- CFB: A

-BEV: B

-ILT: A

-OFA: B

(I know these expectations are a little high for my standard, but i'm really hoping i could hit them!)

During today's detention, had a little test on Unit 1 with Miss Claris, didn't do that well nor that badly.

So i believe that if i put in more effort & handwork, my target will be achieved even without the presentation! :)

Oh! And last night, i met up with Hui Fen, Rena & Jia Hao for dinner around Jurong!

Rena & Jia Hao sure knows the cheapest and tastiest good food around there!

After the dinner, Hui Fen had to go and didn't managed to join us for durians!

Had been craving for durians for so long now, finally curbed it!

SATISFIED!

& i'm meeting Hui Fen tomorrow afternoon to Ngee Ann City followed by meeting Jia Hao & Rena for another round of durian's and maybe a few drinks!

Guess i'll be blogging till here! I know i haven't been blogging for a looooooog time, bear with me!

I'll be back, real soon!

Ciao!

Satur-day-out!

Hellooo friends!

Today is pretty hectic for me.  Traveling here and there.

First stop - AMK

Met up with Damien & the rest to do up a gift for Miss Chen's wedding.

From around 3-4.45 we were hanging around AMK, Popeyes & Popular!

After we were done with the gift, we all trained our ways down to our separate locations.

They were headed for the ROM while i was headed to meet Dewi.

Well, that was the first part of the journey!

Next stop - Chinatown

Met up with Dewi at Dhoby Ghaut MRT first at the last cabin then headed down to Chinatown.

Today was the first time i saw someone putting ink. (tattoo)

The sound of the needle/pen piercing your skin. Brrr.

But i'm definitely going to have my first one pretty soon!

Putting ink don't mean i'm a gangster alright!

I am just into it, that's all! :)

After putting the ink, i went for dinner with Dewi.

Cheap cai fan + sugar cane for dinner. *drools*

Alright, now i'm getting hungry again! Supper? Nah!

Last stop - Bugis & Marina Bay Sands

After dinner, i headed down to Bugis to meet up with Damien & the rest again.

After we met up, we went to get our DESSERT. *yums*

After taking away those dessert, we decided we would walk down to MBS and eat it there!

So we walked, we walked, & walked.

Snapped a lot of photos on Anj's camera!

Don't have it with me now! But i'll be sure to upload them here when i got my hands on them! :)

So, we reached MBS. & I've never, never been there! *I know i very slow! No time to visit ley!*

& we walked to a place that looks like Clarke Quay and sat down there to enjoy our peace & dessert!

While on the way, we definitely had a lot of fun! *laughs*

So, everybody got tired & eventually decided to go home!

Well, that's all for the Saturday day out!

Pretty tiring, but fun-filled with my dear friends!

Can't wait for more of those outings! I heard there's going to be ! :P

Here's a picture for you! :P

(Sorry! I know i'm kind of zi lian & i am not emo! Just found a good angle for this shot!)

P/S: Damn.. My time-table for this week is such a killer! Starting school at 8am everyday.. :(

& my teacher is going to test me on my BEV module!

TIME TO START STUDYING TOMORROW!

Imperfections

Life is unfair.

Face it.

I used to think that my life sucked.

I used to feel that, there is nobody in this world i could rely on.

Nobody that loved me, or cared about me.

Until the people i loved, slowly left me one by one, then i began to cherish.

Things before us, we often take for granted. How true.

I've taken the million chances my parents has given me and not changed a single bit.

Yes, i may be different from before.

But that's what the situations in life has made me.

Decisions i had to make, that i often make wrong.

Now, i don't think my life sucked as bad as before.

I've a complete family. I've sufficient money to live on.

I've got everything anyone could have possibly wanted.

What more can i ask for?

Yes, it's never enough. But things i do not have now, i will get it later.

When i start to make my own money instead of using my parents hard-earned cash.

The riches of this world have blinded humanity.

Greed is the word.

True, money makes the world go round.

Money can get you things that make you happy.

But that happiness is temporary. What happens next?

Being rich is one thing, boasting about it is another.

I really hate those people who flaunt their money around.

They are major turn offs and people i seriously want to punch.

If these people aren't bad enough, wait till you hear this.

Some "brothers" in your life, put that word "bro" on their mouth forever

& without meaning it.

I've experienced it countless of times but i've always gave chances.

Now, there is only one group of friends i really consider brothers.

You know who you are. :)

True friends like those are hard to find.

Learn to differentiate those that will stick by you and those that will betray you.

I've learnt to not trust people that easily

& that's because of some people that made use of the trust i had in them.

"Nobody's perfect. Everyone has their own flaws. That includes me & you."